Personality vs. Attitude

This morning, I had this brief situation with a DD (Directional Driller). For me, DD always have this kind of attitude especially the old-style of DD. They are always,
"You need to do this".
"Make sure this is fixed".
"You should have known this".
And similar things go on and go on. And what makes it more annoying is, they will repeat "We have a problem. We have a problem", many times until I fixed the shit.
Maybe they thought like repeating this mantra, the problem will solve itself.
For me, I will be easily pissed off when I am in that particular situation.
In general, I can see two types of people I work with. And the latter type, they are the people I would be more than to work with again in the future.
Typical person said, "We have a problem. We have a big problem. You need to fix this".
Typical response I will give, "I am not going to do this shit all day".
Awesome person said, "We have an issue. How can we fix this?".
My response will be, "No worries. We will fix this".
Basically, my response is depends on your attitude. Not my attittue.
If you feel that you have problem with it, then fix your attitude first.
What I am trying to deliver here, don't expect people to response positive to you if yourself is being negative.

The history repeats itself

Salam w.b.t and hi all,
I am writing to you guys from the rig - Noble Houston Colbert (NHCO). I arrived yesterday afternoon.
I had lunch and quick meeting with the other MLWD, then had a H2S Drill. At 2.30PM, lay down in the bed while waiting for time to see the Safety Officer. The reason is to get Wifi password.
Then, in 15 minutes I got the Wifi password then there you go. Phone connected and many notifications came in. One of it is a picture in my family Whatsapp group.

From left: Angah, me, and adik

I don't understand at first, and I asked them what is this. Then split second after that, I caught the meaning.
It is happening - again. My sister, Angah is not in a good condition again.
I was calmed at first. I decided to call home. I spoke to Angah, asking what happened and all.
She explained the situation calmly and sounds sad, of course. Only our grandfather (Atok) knows about this so far. They went to see the doctor yesterday morning and shared the news with me afterwards, one hour after I arrived at the rig.
She told me, couple of days back, she went to the clinic at first with my youngest sister - Adek, and the early analysis the doctor said she is pregnant - visual analysis. I know she is not. Doctor felt skeptical or doubt to do further check up since there is no guardian, so, the next day (yesterday) my mother came along. Brought all her medical history and show to the doctor. Then, asked for full scan.
The doctor confirmed, it is a Cyst.
She said, that's when it is confirmed the history repeats itself.
Herself does not feel good, feel hardened in the stomach part, pain, and her period cycle is uncertain. Similar situation happened back in 2016, if I am not mistaken. I was not at home when she undergone surgery at this time. They had to remove one of her ovary, and this time it takes place at her second.
We (woman) only have two, without it, the chance of having kids is nil.
For me, my concern now is her health status and her progress. Also, my mother.
The internet connection was sucks! The phone line keep disconnected. I tried to listen and I had to call many times, and all three different numbers to reach them.
Then, I talked to my mother. She sounded strong at first, I told her, don't worry. I asked her to tell me, if I need to come back. I feel an idiot and selfish when I asked this question. How come I can ask this question..I should be there, with them.
I am dumb - no argument.
Basically, she said, "Benda jadi, kita kena hadapi. Mak tak nak operate, nanti dah takde apa-apa. Cubalah ubat cara ini dulu. Dulu dah buang satu, ini tinggal lagi satu".
"Kalau akak balik pun, takde menda boleh buat. Benda ini bukan boleh dipaksa-paksa keluar".
That's when I can no longer hold my tears. I felt useless. She also cried and immediately passed the phone to my youngest sister - Adek. Then ended the conversation, I told her to take care and let me know if anything. Don't hide it.
I tried to sleep.
Victor (the manager) called this morning, and I asked him how long is he planning to hold me here at the rig - 28 days? He said, no. They are waiting for this MWD to get the paperworks done and I will be relieved in one week. He asked me about my whereabouts previously, my vacation etc. I told him I was at rig Hak-10 for a month, had a vacation in May. I felt reluctant at first, but then I told him I received a bad news from home yesterday. It will be best for me to stay in town instead of at the rig, and if anything I can travel home immediately.
Then he said, give him 5 days. No problem. The reason I told him in advance because I am not planning to put myself in a situation where I will not be able to make a choice later on.
Honestly, I cannot focus.
Three weeks ago, I told my mother, I don't feel good. I don't feel happy, worry. I feel there is something in my heart, that I don't know what cause it. I felt bad. I asked them to be honest, whether everything is good at home. My family especially my mother always try to keep a secret as she does not want me to worry. At that time, she said everything is fine except she is worried as my sister - Angah still looking for a job. That's all. I said, it is ok. No worries, but make sure take care of themselves because I didn't feel good, and I was not sure why.
Then yesterday, when this news broke out, I think this could be the reason why I was not feeling good.
Please make doa my sister will get well and healed completely.
Thank you.
Salam w.b.t.


P/S - La Tahzan

It is me, again.

Salam w.b.t and hey guys,

Apa khabar?

How are you guys doing? All good?

First off, Selamat Hari Raya and Eid Mubarak. I hope you all have a good time with your beloved ones.

How am I doing? It is ok. I spent my whole Ramadhan at the rig and Eid celebration there. I got off the rig last Wednesday after 26 days there. Video taken in the morning of Eid, while I am doing nothing in the unit - Just standby.

Today is my second day in town :)

Yesterday, I went out and spend some ME-time. I went to Doha Festival City, it is a shopping mall actually. I left the apartment around 11AM and came back around 6PM. I watched the Jurassic World, go for shopping, and eat.

The Jurassic World - not that bad actually. When I went there to buy a ticket, I thought there will be a standard seat. Basically, this standard ticket will be around QR30 to QR40. Then, the cashier said well, we only have this VIP and it was QR90. Hurmm…quite expensive. I don’t want to cancel this, so OK.

I would prefer to watch the movie in cinema during odd hours, like working days in the afternoon. So, the seats will be empty on the left and right. Not many noises or phones. However, still some Arabic people being a jerk not silent their phones.

Anyway, I watched the movie and I had a good laugh actually, maybe the Star Lord in there. The cinematic of the movie is awesome and the sound in the theater, DOLBY-ATMOS. Not that bad.

 



Owen and Blue. Cute when small, not too cute when big :p

Then after, I went for window shopping. At least good thing is, there are bookshops in this mall. I googled any malls that have bookshops in it, and this Festival City have it. It is hard to see bookshops here in Qatar, unlike in Aberdeen. If you walk at the shopping lots in Aberdeen or any streets, there will be at least one or two bookshops. The used books, brand new books, writer visit the city, meeting sessions, etc. So, you will have variety of choices to get the book.

Here in Doha, hardly to see one. In City center mall, only small stationery shop and one give card shop. No actual bookstores. Regardless, I went to this bookshop yesterday and I bought this book - Wonder.

 

QR50 yuolls.

I haven't watch the movie yet, so I buy this book. It is been a while I actually buy any book myself. Normally, I will ask my sisters to buy them on behalf of me. "Wonder", it is a good start to read, I don’t want to start with heavy contain books. I want to bring this book to the rig and read it before I sleep. Then, if I manage to finish this, then I will buy another one.

I have been reading less and less book, especially when I am in Doha. I need to improve it. At home, I can finish three 1000pages books in one week. No problem at all.

For food, not that interesting. There are no good restaurants in that mall. Good restaurant for me is like, Spicy food - rice and welcoming. I just went to the food court and eat Rice with Kung Pao chicken. Not tasty, but I was hungry. So, just eat it to fill my stomach. Then, I went to Starbuck get some Frape.

Since I am not planning to come back to this mall, I decided to explore the whole mall. From top to bottom, one end to another. Not many people yet around 4 o'clock, so was good to have a look around. It has two levels only, but it is long. Actually towards, around 4.30pm, I already sleepy. Mind you, I did night shift at the rig for nearly 4 weeks. Thus, I was still adjusting my sleeping time back to normal. It is like a jetlag, and you cannot fix it for just one night. For me, it will normally take 3-4 days to adjust to normal sleeping time. Night to sleep, day to awake.  

So yesterday, I had to drag both my legs to finish the tour in the shopping mall. I know I will be very, very sleepy but I had to fight my sleepiness. At 5PM, I was really struggling, but managed to finish the walk. Around 5.30PM, I took a taxi and straight away went back to my apartment.

Then, straight away sleep until 5AM this morning.

This morning, I did laundry and just chillout. Ah! I forgot to tell you. I will be going to another rig tomorrow, informed about this yesterday morning. I told the person in charge, I just got back from the rig. I thought I will have couple of days in town, just relax. Basically, need to put back all the shites into my offshore bag. They have to send one MWD to relieve this engineer since she already more than 28 days. Same reason I get off from the previous rig, as the client does not allow to stay more than 28 days per hitch. Now, I need to go to another rig to relieve this engineer.

Honestly, I feel tired. Not about job, I think I already feel bored with this kind of cycle.

Wait for job, go for a job, come back from the a job, and wait for a job. The cycle goes on and on. For me, it is already start become a routine.

It is dull.

I know I just got back from a vacation one month ago. However, this is no longer about vacation or so.

I don’t feel happy. I am no longer feel happy with what is going on with me.

Well, I will talk about this but not now.

I think that’s it for now. I don’t have anything particular to share actually. I just write and write.

Take care guys and see you next time.

Salam w.b.t and see you.

P/S - Nothing.