2015, In A Nutshell

Salam w.b.t and hi all.

How are you guys been doing? Alhamdulillah, I am doing fine here. As we all know, 2016 is just around the corner. Time flies fast, I mean, really fast.

Time is gold. En route to Aberdeen from Paris

I remember the time I happy, cried, disappointed for various of things. The memories are still fresh, like it just happened yesterday.

A lot of things have happened. A lot of things have changed. Well, we are not living in a static world, are we?

In my head, I have many things to share on this blog but as usual, I don’t know what to start with. Thus, I think I will just share the highlights of events happened in my 2015 calendar.

 

Start working with SLB

It was exhaustive wait. People might know I am working in Aberdeen, but not everyone knows, how? After Australia, they changed my posting to Indonesia. Unfortunately, my work Indonesia visa did not approve as I did not meet the age requirement. I was 23 at the time. Then, the recruiter made drastic changes, he changed my segment and the posting location. I need to go for all the interview processes, all over again. As they can't simply assign me without knowing my capabilities.

I went to Labuan, again. Hehehe…I took it as a vacation.

Sunset view from staff house in Labuan

Making new friends

I make new friends. I work at Sepen, I make new friends there. You know what, during my last day of employment I cried. A colleague said to me, "Chill man, you just work 6 months here. So, chillex". Hahaha…



My last meeting with Sepen folks

Also, I make new friends in Paris. All are SLB new hired, we met in Paris during OFS-1. I never be in one room with so many nationalities, around 20 nationalities from around the world. Only me from Malaysia. I was quite scare at first, like my English is not so fluent. But, things sorted out well.

The largest batch in 2015 for EAF geomarket, they said

I have new friend here, her name is Kanoon. We are based in Aberdeen but stay at different staff house. Despite of different segment, we contact each other as we are still trying to settle down in Aberdeen. Actually, got several other trainees posted to Aberdeen, but I don’t have the pictures with them.

Me and Kanoon, she is from Thailand

I am sure I will meet more people in the future. I need to improve my social skills and also English, seriously. Haish…I am so not good at mingling around with people.

Miss old friends

I miss my friends, all of my friends although I am not being nice to everyone. I did not have a chance to meet up before I depart to the UK. Seriously folks. I miss you guys. All of you. I don’t want to specify the names, because it will be a very, very long list.



Friends

Therefore, I am extremely grateful and over the moon when some old friends randomly PM on Facebook. I really mean it. You know, when you are far from home, and your friends message to say hi, it is a great feeling. The feelings are like, "Owh man, this person still remember me. What a surprise!", "I have someone to talk to. Yuhuu!!".

Hahaha

Well, I know it is from Facebook, but still it is a great thing when the person still has guts to say hi to others.

 

New place, new environment, and being far from home

Home is where the heart is.

I don’t know how to describe this. But my adapting skill are being test to a whole new level. Freezing cold weather, sunlight for less than 5 hours a day, cultures, job, Scottish accent, foods, and many more. It is not easy I am telling you.

Apart from weather, their Scottish accent is quite a challenge for me

I am still adapting and it is challenging.

Despite of all the challenges, I always pray that I will never forget my responsibilities as His servant, my responsibilities as a daughter of my mother, and always stay down to earth. If I am changing, I hope that I am changing in a good way to become a better person.

Feel a "little bit" homesick at the moment

Experienced various of feelings

 

2015 is quite emotional year for me. Hahaha…I experienced various of feelings and emotions throughout the year compared to years before. I learn from the experiences, which kind of helping me to become a mature adult. Wihihihihi

Smile, do and pray for the best

Resolutions

I am learning from the past. I am drafting my 2016 resolutions, in my head. Hahaha….I haven't make my resolutions for the next year. Aiyaa….

But I have a personal diary already. My sister, angah gave it to me as a present. Wahaha…I am sure having a diary is a good start, isn't?

One iron woman, three daughters



I think that’s all I have on my mind at the moment. I hope we all will be successful in everything we do, and achieve success in this world and hereafter, InsyaAllah.

 

So folks, that’s it for now. I will write again in the future. As usual, take a good care of yourself.

 

Salam w.b.t and chow!

 

P/S - Great things are not easy to achieve, need a special formula and most important thing is PATIENCE

 

Quick Life Update 4

Salam w.b.t and hi all.

I did not post anything in last month. A lot of things have happened since last month, and I confused and too busy to think on what topic I want to write.

Thus, I think in this entry I will make it simple and sweet. Just in case anyone unsure, I am in Melun, Paris. Some of you may already know from my Facebook. I am here for one week, and today is the second last day.

1. I left my position as Project Engineer at Sepen Engineering. My last day of employment was on November 28.


2. I received my passport with visa to work in my assignment country on November 30. It was really, really close as I was due to leave Malaysia on December 6.


3. On December 6, I spent most of my time in flight. It was the longest flights I ever taken yet in my life. From KL, it was nearly 8 hours and I transit in Dubai for 2 hours. Then, from Dubai I departed to Paris and it took 8 hours as well. It was supposed to be 7 hours, but got a drunk woman, sat in front row of me, and she was not fit to fly. The crews took time to bring her out and to remove her baggage from flight. The situation was insane, I thought I will only see it in the movies. Anyway, I used Emirates Airline throughout the journey.


4. The jetlag I experienced was quite bad. I felt dizzy, headache, difficulties to sleep, and blur for like the next two days. But it was fine then.


5. I will leave Paris on 12 December to depart to my assignment location. I will share my location, later. Hehehe…


6. Also, I have a new wisdom tooth. It was painful like mad last week, but this week it is getting better. Hopefully, the tooth will be well behave from now on. I think I need to take care my personal health really seriously from now. Yes, no more taking personal health for granted.



SLB ELC, Melun

What else…I think that’s all for now. Just so you know, I could not share too details on what I am doing and what I experienced as the company put some restrictions on the information that can be revealed to public. It is not I am stingy, it just that my responsibilities to obey the rules and I don’t feel like creating any troubles.

Besides, the IT people in the company can access my laptop remotely. It is crazy, right….Haha…

Yes, I am publishing this entry from my-brand-new-SLB-laptop :)

I think that’s all for now. If you want to ask anything, just drop me a line. Catch you later, folks. Take care and chow!

Salam w.b.t.

P/S - The food here is nice, got halal at the accommodation as well at ELC. I am well-fed, so no argument here why I don’t look thin. 

Personal Diary

Salam w.b.t and hi all.

It is Mid of November, then December will come. So how are you guys doing? Unrelated, right? Hahaha…I am doing fine, well, great actually. Early of this month, I was quite sick, after taking some medications, I am doing fine, still recovering though.  :)

Believe it or not, 2015 is nearly comes to its end and 2016 is approaching. Time flies fast. In 2015, I did not list any resolution. Why, you may ask. The sole reason is, I was dumb.

Therefore, to avoid my poorly unintelligent manner from continuing, I am planning to make some resolutions. Of course, I will not share it now. I will share it later (may subject to change), but first of all, I will need to buy a personal diary.

Yeah, a personal diary.

I did make several window shopping recently, I went to bookshops to find a diary. However, all the diaries sell at the stores does not meet my taste. Well, you know…they are all standard kind of diaries. Like page with lines, months, black/dark covers, and also pages with phone numbers etc. Also, their size sometimes are too big, too small, too thick, or too thin. Too many "too-s" here.

In short, I haven't found the diary I want.

What I want is quite simple actually, "friendly-diary". Of course the diary must be friendly, I want to bring it with me to everywhere I go at anytime. Apart from that, it can be trusted.

Physically, I want the diary to looks professional, not bulky, beautiful colour (esp. the cover), and handy. For the inside pages, got months and days planner. Also, enough space for me to add any additional information on the page at any pages.

The price of the diary shall be reasonable. Well, I have to see it first, then, determine whether it is worth it or not.

If you guys know any places or websites which sell good personal diary, please let me know. I need to find it fast! Time is running out as 2016 is around the corner. 

I think that’s it for now. Salam w.b.t and take care folks.

P/S - Don't ever suggest me to buy a Tablet. 

Another Year, Another Number

Salam w.b.t and hi all.

Reaching 24 years old on the last three days, I get to know myself better.

Trust

I trust people easily, new friends and even a stranger. Yes, I am an idiot for trusting people easily. Every time I meet a new friend, I would love to think they are like a baby. You know, they are ‘white’, pure, nice and no bad side. Yeah, too ambitious right? Anyhow, that is how I want people to think of me, positive. Treat others like how we want to be treated, shall we?

Unfortunately, too much trust I give to people has taken its toll on me. Many events, but it is better to keep it to myself. My mother always advised me to be careful, different people have different heart. However, with the increase of my age, I am learning about people and from my experience. Hopefully, I will be wiser each day.

Style, Fashion, and Me.

Goodbye fashion and style. I am a cave girl. Jajajaja…

When I am angry,

When I am angry, I will be quiet. It is not I don’t have anything to say, it is I am trying extremely hard to stop bad words which are racing hard to get out from my mouth. Otherwise, I will kill others with my words, which I don’t fancy to.

When I am envy,

When I am envy to a specific person, I would not talk to that person for a certain amount of time. I would say I am taking some time to persuade or "pujuk" my heart. Weird, right? That’s how woman deals with her broken heart, I guess.

When I am waiting,

I cannot deal with a lateness or waiting for someone/something that is late. My blood will be pumped very, very, very fast when this happen. Impatient, yes I am. But, when you said meeting at 3 pm, 3 pm it is. It is not that at 3 pm you just started moving your ass from your chair. Understand?

I am stubborn.

This is a fact. I can tolerate on certain things, and also got certain things which I could not tolerate. For example, when you force me to do something I don't want. Let me give you an example, a colleague asked me to go somewhere to monitor the project progress. This fella kept forcing me, I don’t want. When I said I don’t want, means I don’t want. Period.

Anyway, I don’t blame this fella, it is in my DNA to against when people pushing me. But, it takes some arts if you want me to do something which against my willingness. People who understands me know the arts I mentioned.

I am not good in terms of social life

I am not good at maintaining relationship with others. I don’t know why, but when I befriended with a similar person for a long time, I will get boring. Let say, I meet that person every single day for six months straight, I will be boring. Seriously dull. I need to meet people, meet new people. I still got friends, but not many. Anyway, based on an online personality test, I am an introvert kind of person.

I think that online test was a fake. So, dear my future husband if you are reading this, believe me, the test was not genuine.

Routine

Falling into same routine every single day will kill me slowly. Nevertheless, at the moment I am trying my best to make myself calm and composed. I would love to see and experience something extraordinary every single day. So that I can reflect what I have gone through before I go to sleep and think what can be done better next time.

I think that’s all I want to share about myself. Some may take this entry as a way to understand me better, like understanding the reasons why Atiqah is so annoying. Some others may take this as disadvantage to manipulate me. Yeah, whatever.

Either way, I hope you have fun reading this. Hehehe…

Salam w.b.t and chow!

P/S – Who got extra money and don’t know how to spend it? Please, bank it to my account. I need money. PM me for details J

Harga Diri

Salam w.b.t dan hai semua.

Perasan tak?

Dalam kehidupan seharian kita, kita pasti akan ketemu dengan orang yang mesti kena berteman. Kalau tak berteman, atau dilihat keseorangan, mesti dianggap macam pelik atau kera sumbang, pada firasat dia.

Sebab itu, ada sesetengah orang akan berusaha gila-gila untuk membuatkan dirinya diterima dalam kelompok orang ramai.

Misalnya, seorang pemuda pada asalnya berambut hitam sisir tepi, dan berpakaian kemas apabila keluar bertemu rakan-rakan. Tetapi, bagi memastikan dia dikira sebagai “geng” dan nampak kamceng dengan kawan-kawannya, maka mulalah mengubah penampilannya.

Contohnya, rambut perang, pakaian pun ala-ala hipster, itu tak kira lagi lenggok bahasanya.

“Sial”, “Bodoh”, “Fuck”, dan lain-lain sering meniti di bibir, kononnya, barulah dikatakan COOL.

Pemudi pun tak dapat lari dari senario ini.

Kalau sebelum ini, rambut hitam lurus dan berpakaian sopan seperti kebanyakan gadis Melayu. Namun, nak mengelakkan diri tergolong dalam golongan kebanyakan, maka diubahlah penampilannya. Diwarnakan, dipakaikan topi ala-ala musim winter di atas kepala, disarungnnya skinny jeans. Kemudian, dilaunglah sekuat-kuatnya, “Aku UNIK”.

Golongan Muslimah pun tak terkecuali. Lahirlah Hijabster, Turban-ster, Kpop-ster. Macam-macam lah, -ster. Iyalah…mengikut peredaran zaman. Tidak mahulah dikatakan perempuan Muslimah ini jumud dan terkebelakang.

Itu baru dari segi penampilan. Hakikatnya, banyak aspek dalam diri manusia diubahsuai hanya untuk memastikan diri diterima dalam kelompok tertentu.

Hairan. Begitu mudah terpengaruh..

Kagum. Begitu banyak usaha, material, dan wang terbuang hanya untuk membuatkan diri diterima masuk dalam kalangan yang dikatakan, “GENG”.

Ya, mungkin juga masih mencari identiti diri. Mencarilah, kerana ia tak pernah dilarang.

Namun, janganlah dikorbankan perkara yang satu ini.

Iaitu, harga diri.

P/S – Kerana dirimu begitu berharga ;D

Anxiety

Salam w.b.t and hello folks,

Recently, I have difficulties to breath. I can feel my heartbeats become irregular. Also, I can feel my heart like wants to pop out from my chest. Sometimes I feel a headache. These symptoms does not happen at all time, but it takes place once in a while. I thought it was due to the haze that happens in Malaysia.

So, last two nights, I went to a clinic.

I explained to the doctor and she also checked my blood pressure, pulse rate, oxygen level, and others. From her finding, everything seems normal. The oxygen I breathe is around 99 percent, which is normal.

Then I asked her, “Why sometimes I feel my heart was pumping so fast and it was like the heart wants to tear my chest and get out? Is it possible because of the air quality currently caused my situation?

The doctor said, “Well, according to the readings here, all is normal. Maybe what caused you felt like that is the anxiety. However, I will give a medicine to enhance your breathing flow”.

“Owh, ok”, I replied.

Then I went out and waiting for my medicine.

Since then, I keep wondering. Yeah, wondering. Why do I feel those?

I think the doctor might be right.

Anxiety.

I will add some more.

Worry.

Afraid.

Most of them are negative feelings.

I think I spent most of my times by feeling anxious and worrying.

I have been distressing on many things at most of the times. I can feel my health starts deteriorating lately although it is unable to be proven on medical aspect. I don’t know, I just can feel it and I cannot help to avoid from feeling it.

I dislike it when I am in anxious state. It makes me grumpy, feeling I-don’t-care, and always want to say “fuck-off” to people. But the “fuck-off” thing did not exactly come out from my mouth, instead I said, “I don’t care, you settle this thing on your own”, which is not usually my style at work.

Therefore, judging on my conditions, I requested for 2 days leave from work from the doctor. Unfortunately, she only gave me one. Then, it is fine by me. One is better than nothing.

Yesterday, I just rested at home. It did not help much because last night, the syndromes I mentioned before attacked me. I did not feel comfortable, I kept changing places. From room at the back, to the front, to the kitchen, toilet and other rooms. To avoid my mother from asking, I pretending move here and there while doing some stuffs. This went on for like 20 minutes, and lastly I decided to try to sleep.

Yes, I manage to sleep but with tonnes of anxiety.

I don’t know what to do.

I know, as a Muslim turn to Allah SWT and seek His help. But yeah I think this might be His call for me to come back to him…but still, I can’t help it.

I think I need a break and take a short vacation to somewhere peace.

I really need to find a piece of mind, motivation, and new spirit.

P/S – Nothing interesting to ps. Oh got one, I just finished reading the Martian. Interesting story, the author maybe someone who used to work at NASA.

Quick Life Update 3

 Salam w.b.t and hi readers,

Okay, here the quick update.

1. Currently, I am reading the Martian written by Andy Weir.
2. 3rd October, will be the delivery of the big tanks. Not one, not two, but three. And towards the day, I am frickin' nervous. What could go wrong? Many! Hopefully, all will go well.
3. 16 Crystallisers, I am learning it from Miss Lau, the engineer .
4. The haze in my area is starting to subside. Sometimes, could be very bad. Few weeks back, I have difficulties to breath and chest pain. Haish…I did not wear facemask because I thought I was strong.
5. Raya Haji, was a-okay. My sisters came back home and stay for a few days.

That’s all for now. Not much, but I think enough to let the world know I am still alive.

Salam w.b.t and chow.

P/S - I will share the details on the tanks delivery in the upcoming entry.

Apa yang Kau Tahu

Sering kau suruh aku ikut telunjuk kau,

Kerap kau paksa aku patuh arahan kau,

Kau kata kau lebih tahu,

Kau bilang kau lebih dulu menjamah garam,

Maka, “Ikut aku!”

Gertak.

Apa kau fikir aku takut,

Apa kau ingat aku akan mengikut kau,

Seperti lembu dicucuk hidung,

Aku manusia,

Punya kepala,

Ada hati,

Berjiwa raga,

Aku berhak buat pilihan,

Tanpa gangguan dan godaan,

Dari engkau,

Setan.

Aku Cemburu

dongak ke langit biru,

aku lihat burung-burung,

berterbangan,

bebas,

tiada pagar merentangi,

aku cemburu.

renung ke dalam tasik,

aku lihat ikan-ikan,

berenang,

bebas,

tiada jaring menghalang,

aku cemburu.

aku tengok si kaya,

seronoknya dia,

bebas,

ke sana ke mari,

tanpa bimbang,

bebanan dan tanggungjawab,

aku cemburu.

hei manusia!

engkau dah kenapa?

sibuk cemburu sana sini,

tak reti bersyukur?

apa kau ingat semua kau nampak tu bagus?

apa kau lebih tahu dari AKU??

bersyukurlah,

engkau masih bernyawa,

jantung engkau tak AKU sekat degupannya,

engkau masih bebas,

untuk bernyawa.

yang penting,

bersyukur,

dan ingat AKU selalu,

baru engkau rasa cukup,

ingat AKU,

engkau akan sentiasa bebas.

Apa kau nampak itu semua bagus pada kau? Kau salah.

 

Pursue Studies, Why Not?

Salam w.b.t and hello people.

I always get this from many people, "Hey Atiqah, don't you want to pursue studies?", "Don't you want to be a lecturer?", "Are you going to do Master after this?", and other questions but with similar meaning.

Always, my answer will be “NO”. Then, the common following question from them is, “Why?” Saying “NO” is the easiest part in this situation, whereas the “Why” is the most difficult part.

I have a lot of reasons of why I am not doing Master or pursue studies. When I say ‘a lot’, I really mean it. One sentence would not be enough to describe this. It is not that I did not get the opportunity, in fact, I got two chances to pursue studies at higher level.

The first one was Master in Chemical Engineering at UWA, Perth and the second one was Master in Aerospace at Cranfield University, UK. Both were sponsored, and I declined. You guys must think I am an imbecile for rejecting the chances, right?

I have my reasons, people. Therefore, I summarise them here.

Responsibility

Before I completed my undergraduate course, pursuing studies in Master was not my favourite idea, even now. My goal is to make my mother live happily, fulfil all her dreams, and stop working. I am the eldest, and I have huge responsibilities. Therefore, I must work to support my family. I started to apply for Master when most of my friends did so back in mid-2013. At the time, I was not really clear with direction I want to take, so I just go with the flow. My mother was not really happy with the idea and she was worried. In the meantime, I also found that I did not really into this. I want to work, support my family, and gain money as well as experience. For me, experience is much more valuable than the beautiful postgraduate transcript.

Purpose

If you want to pursue in something, in this case, studies, you must have a purpose. Ask yourself first, “Why do you want to further studies?”. When I first start doing my final year project, I read a saying, “Doing thesis is not about just experimenting or whatsoever, it is about contributing to the academic world”.

From my stance, I am not sure how and what can I contribute to the world if I do Master. During my degree, I did my thesis for the sake of finishing my degree course, not more than that. Consequently, I had a hard time and I did not enjoy doing it. I do not want to go similar experience again and waste another year by doing Master without a clear objective, then regret my decision.

Whatever it is, I do not have any objective to do Master. Besides, I don’t know what course to do.

Schlumberger

Yes, even though I have not yet start, I am 150% confident that I will learn and experience more once I am start working with Schlumberger. It will be the mix of theory and hands-on experience in extremely challenging environment.

And, I am really looking forward to it.

Escape

From my personal opinion, people who pursue studies is like fleeing from reality. It sounds negative, huh? But that is my opinion, my personal opinion. I am sorry if it hurts your feeling.

I often heard my friends said, “With Master, will get a fat paycheck compared to Degree”, “Recruiter’s attention will be more on candidates with higher level of education”, “I don’t want to go back to my homeland yet, so it gives me more time to stay oversea”, “Follow my husband/wife finish studies”, and the list goes on.

So far, I heard none said like, “I love doing research and I believe I can contribute to the world through my research”. None.

Thus, I conclude that they are escaping from reality or should I say, delay their time from facing the reality.

You know, reality is harsh.

In reality, having Master will not guarantee you will get much higher pay than degree/diploma graduate, particularly in Malaysia. In addition, with current state of economy, the employers want the best employees but with low pay. Other than that, HR’s attention will not necessarily interested to the person with higher qualification. It is a competition, real life competition with infinity number of rules.

Whatever it is, reality is bitter and difficult. The sooner you face the reality, the better you adapt to it.

Sharing your experiences, not your theories

In small part of myself, I always want to be a person who shares knowledge. You can acknowledge it as a lecturer, teacher, educator, or whatever. The knowledge I would like to share is the knowledge I got from my experience, not the theories from textbooks. In order to share the experiences, I must first experience it myself.

Someone once said to me, in Malaysia, a lot of lecturers at the universities. However, they are lacking industrial experiences. Not all lecturers of course, only some. These people can only teach from textbooks, which is not really helpful as students can also refer to the textbook themselves.

Back in Australia, most of the lectures have knowledge and experiences in the industry, thus the learning process become more fascinating for me. The faculty always invited the guests from well-known companies in related industry to share their expertise. This is so valuable, and indirectly inspired me to become “the guest” one day.

These are my reasons, and everyone has their own reasons. No problem though, as we cannot force people to accept our reasons, as we also sometimes prone to object other’s reasons. Well, maybe in the future, Allah S.W.T destine me to further studies, we never know. But for now, I am comfortable with my decision of not pursuing studies at higher level.

That’s it from me, people. If you have comments, do not hesitant to drop it below. As usual, take care and Salam w.b.t.

P/S – Sir Lokman, from SLB came to my house last Saturday together with his wife and kids. What an unexpected guests :D 

Accident

Salam w.b.t and hello, dear readers.

How are you guys doing? I am doing ok :)

In my previous post, I did mentioned about me got into an accident. This time, I would like to share the timeline of the event. It was on Saturday (25/7), after work. On Saturday, it is a half-day work and we can left the office around 12 noon. I was planning to go home around 2-3 pm, as the road is very congested on Saturday as people want to go to the shopping malls in Rawang. Besides, I can do some works at office.

Suddenly, around 12.20 pm, I changed my mind. I want to go home, so I packed my stuffs and left the office. The traffic was not really bad, but still, a lot of cars. The Raya mood was still in the air, people may come from various destinations to visit their relatives or friends.

I was driving, but my head was not focus on it. Many things were in my head, and my mind was not really into the road in front of me. This poor behaviour of mine took its toll when I arrived at Sungai Dua, Rawang around 1.00 pm. The road was very narrow, the three lanes will have to converge to become one lane. So, the cars were very slow and the distance was close to one another.

After my car got into one lane, I drove and an orange Proton Gen2 was in front of my car. I could see the people in that car talked happily with each other. The car moving slowly, and at the time I saw the cars much front than the Proton Gen2 already moving. I pressed the accelerator, and...

"BAM!!!". I hit the Proton Gen2.

Suddenly, I became a center of attention of everyone at the scene. One driver at the opposite lane shouted to me from inside of their car, "Your car looks terrible".

I would call the person I hit as a "Victim Uncle".

The Victim Uncle got off from his car while in the middle of the road and looked at the back of his car while angry at me. I also went out from my car and asked the Victim Uncle to park our cars at the side of the road and discuss. I thought it was mine and his car only, I was wrong. There was another car involved. It was a chain reaction.

I hit the Proton Gen2, the Gen2 hit the Proton Saga, in front of his car.

After I parked my car at the side of the road, I called Viki. I wanted to ask for his help as I panicked and pretty shaky. He did not answer the call, maybe he was in the factory. Then, I called my mother several times before she answered my call. In the meantime, I messaged into the company's Whatsapp group as I did not know what else to do.

The response as following

The thing was, the most damaged was my car. The bonnet of my car dented, but the lamps were still intact. Not too bad at first, as I was just about to crank up the speed before the accident took place.

My car

Victim Uncle's car

The Proton Saga

His back of the car, nothing happen. No dent or whatsoever. So with the Proton Saga. The only damage happened to his car was, the radiator of the engine was leaking as he accidentally hit the front car, which was Proton Saga.

The driver of Proton Saga said, "Our car is fine, so you do not have to worry. Just settle with the Victim Uncle". Not long after that, the Proton Saga's driver left the scene.

The family of the Victim Uncle was mad, especially his wife. His kids also angry. I said, "I am on my way to go home from work". I could see they were having a hard time to believe what I said, maybe, (1) I hit their car, (2) My small size of physical, (3) My dress attire did not portray I am a working person. Yes, I wore T-shirt and jeans. No blazer and tie whatsoever.

The wife kept attacking me with harsh words, even though I apologised many times. The more I said "Sorry", the angrier she became. Then, I did not give a damn to her.

Before any conversations took place, there were several towing guys came to the scene. They talked about towing, insurance, police, money, and other jargon words which I could not fathom at that time. This was my first accident, and I don't know.

"The money in my purse was not even reach RM50, how the hell am I going to pay the guys and the Victim Uncle?".

My mother said in the phone call, "Whatever happen, solve it calmly and don't even give a penny to them. Go to police station and make a report, then use insurance money to fix things up".

My head could not think clearly, and I seriously need a back up. Then, Jeffery Yong arrived. Sharon, Kaley also arrived at the scene. Viki arrived not long after that. After some talking and the tow arrived, we headed to Rawang Police Station.

When my office mates arrived, the Victim Uncle and his family seemed to believe, I was from my workplace. Maybe they already set in their minds that I was a wild lady, maybe.

Then we went to police station. My boss also arrived at the police station to check on me. My self started to calm a little bit when I saw familiar faces around me.

I made a report first, followed by the Victim Uncle. The police asked to the Victim Uncle, "Where is the Proton Saga's driver?". As there must be a solid reason why the Gen2's car got damage at the front bonnet. The Proton Saga's driver must make a report as well although his car do not damage, just to verify the Victim Uncle's report.

My report will be compared with the Victim Uncle report, to make sure it is tally or not. Then, the Victim Uncle's report will be matched with the driver of Proton Saga. Otherwise, it will classified as a fake report.

The insurance company also will investigate about this before the claim is approved. Otherwise, the claim to repair the car will not be approved and we have to pay by our own. This was not my problem, this was Victim Uncle's problem. At that time, I feel bad because I can feel, I was a selfish. But yes, I had to save my self first.

Then, we proceeded to a traffic department to make a second report. The Traffic Sergeant will take our report, take the pictures of the cars, and give a summon. Yes, I got the summon, RM300 as it was my fault. Sharon and Kaley stayed until I completed doing the report. After I was done with the report, I left the police station.

By the time I wanted to left the station, I could see the wife of the Victim Uncle still mad, she kept pointing at me with her mouth mumbling words. I do not care, how they are going to go home or how they are going to reach the destination. I don't care. The harsh reactions from the family made me sick to deal with them. Right now, I feel cruel.

It was my fault, I admitted it to everyone, even the Traffic Sergeant said, "Most of the time, the offenders would not admit it was their fault when they hit others". Didn't I make it easier by admitting my offend to others? Then, why still be angry? You and I should be grateful it was not a major accident, and no injuries occurred and no blood involved.

I just wanted to go home. I was so tired and hungry. I just wanted to lay on the bed, and close my eyes. I don't care anything else.

So, the lessons from here:

1. Whenever accident happens, especially due to your fault, admit and apologise to make things easier. Never make a twist in your story as there will be many witnesses at the scene.

2. Call a back-up, especially for ladies. Does not matter who, just call anybody, your father, husband, boyfriend, office mates, friends, etc. Under this circumstance, you will surely feel panic. However, seeing some familiar faces surrounds you will at least bring a comfort to yourself.

3. Expect to become a center of attention in a split of second. Like in one minute ago, you were just a normal person who was on your way to go home. Suddenly, in the next seconds, you are an offender and every eyes will be on you. So, brace yourself.

4. There will be tow guys with their tow truck at the location. Even I, myself impressed how they knew about the accident and reached at the scene quickly. They will talk about money, insurance, and many things that you never want to bother before this. Whatever it is, do not fall to this unless you clearly understand what are they talking about.

5. Never, ever give money/cash to the tow guys/victims and never sign any document. The only document I signed was the police report.
6. If you have the opportunity and feel alright, maybe you should do some good deeds to the victim. For instance, give some money just as a compensation. At least, it will cover their cost of transportation to go home. I did not do that because I did not think about this at the time.

7. Focus on the road while driving, things could be much worse if you drive very fast. Speed can kill.

So, that's all from me people. I hope you can get something useful from here. Take care and see you in the next entry.

Salam w.b.t and chow!

P/S - I already got my car, Alhamdulillah. I think I want to contact the Victim Uncle later, I feel cruel before this.