I am not a tree but my mind is and it is a problem

Good Evening all,

How are you all doing? Things have been tough lately right..With what is happening in the world, in our lives, everything look hazy. 

Same for me here. I am at the rig, another rig at land this time. I got off from Rig Halul last time on 8th November. Managed to get some rest and immediately had to depart to GDI-1, land rig on 14th. 

Between 9th to 13th, a lot of things I had to do like just to be normal person. I did laundry, home cleaning, some shopping, watching movies and had to do swab test and renew my medical checkup as well. 

Me on this side, Claudia on another side

I cut my finger as well, no actually I spliced my fingers. Two finger, left and right but the worse was left. It was at night and I wanted to cut ginger, I just hold it and not using the chopping board. Booom! I cut left one, and during that time I did not know how the right finger also got cut.

It was scary as fresh blood coming out from both hands I did not know what to do. I tried walking calmly to my room to get minyak gamat but the one on the table was finished. The blood dripping all over the places in the meantime. Another bottle of minyak gamat was in the closet. I ended up had to call for Claudia from her room. 

This is what I have got and used for two nights, wrapped with kitchen tissue and rubber. I wet the tissue with minyak gamat so the wound will be wet with it at all time while sleeping.

She surprised and helped me to open the minyak gamat. I was shaking as well at the same time because of shock as well as pain. That happened.

Next day I had to do medical checkup and swab test. I was thinking I will get the proper wound cleaning there.

I wrapped like this before going to medical check up and swab test. It was too bulky and I cannot hide it.

On 13th morning around 10am, I was told all the crew will depart to land rig at 3pm on the same day. I was not happy at all, as my finger still wounded and I limit the pressure I put on my hand. So how come I can pack my bag and carry it to the rig..So I said I will need 24 hours' notice as I was thinking to go to the clinic later in that same afternoon. 

I managed to stay one more day and departed to the rig on 14th.

Claudia has been taking care of my plant since I left. She even bought this spray to water the plant. It is growing big and I am thinking to rod to make support when I am back in Doha.

For me, at that time and even now I feel disappointment. I don’t know, I feel disappointed with myself why I still in this situation when I hate it?  

This quote regarding tree came to my IG timeline from Fynn Jamal couple of weeks back..I have been thinking about it most of the time.

I have no guts to change I would say and it is very disappointing.  

Publicly, people has been complaining about the jobs, workload, and how are things being done but none decided to move on. Even encouraged others to cry out loud. I spoke to my colleague, in reality none put a bullet in our head to stop us from walk away. However, why we complain so much?

I have been stop whining publicly since May or June. I don't find it anymore fun when I complaint and nothing happen. Because in reality, it is me who make a choice of doing what I am doing. 

I know it is dumb, but I just swallow for now and in the meantime working on the plan.

That's the update I have now...I will see you all next time.

Salam wbt and take care.

P/S - No P/S this time.

Sorry for neglecting you

 Salam w.b.t and hi all.

Well, it has been a while I write any updates on this blog. Seriously, time flies really fast. Let me give quick updates what's going on with me.

On the last update, I was writing from the quarantine facility in Kuala Lumpur, right..

Now, in this entry, I am writing from the middle of the ocean somewhere in Qatar water. How did I end up here..

-     I finished the quarantine at home on 31st August and returned to my mom's home afterwards

-     I stayed at home from 31st August for four weeks

-     I travelled back to Qatar on 5th October

-     I did home quarantine in Qatar for 2 weeks from 6th October until 20th October

-     On 26th October, I departed to the rig which I am currently at, Rig Halul

Time flies really fast. On 1st September, as it was a public holiday we visited Fraser Hill as it was close to home. When I was at home, the first three weeks was really hectic. I went back to my hometown, Kg. Chemomoi, Bentong, Pahang. Visited my paternal grandfather as he was getting old (uzur), then followed the visit to my maternal grandfather. We picked him up from Kg. Chemomoi and returned to my mother's house in Batang Kali on the same day. So he can just stay with us for couple of days as we will bring him to visit his sick brother in Kajang.

On the next day, as planned, we went to Kajang to visit his sick brother. They haven't met each other for a long while. Then visited my mother's siblings live in Kajang and Puchong before headed home. It was crazy.

During the weekend, we went back to Kg. Chemomoi to send my grandfather. En route, we visited again my other grandfather who was sick. All three of my siblings were there to visit him. We returned to Batang Kali on the same day.

On the second week, I was busy. I did my yearly medical check-up and also bekam for the first time. I forgot to tell you, I bought a sub-sale house, around 6 houses from my mother. In the meantime, every day I will visit my house as it was under renovation. It supposed to be completed when I returned to Malaysia, but it was behind the schedule. Very, very busy. 

The house is not yet done. No gate, grill etc. I took this before I left for airport.

On the third week, the folk in Qatar asked me to standby to return to Qatar as they are waiting for my re-entry permit to be approved by Qatar  government. I was hoping and praying it is not approved for the next 2 weeks as it is too early for me to return. I barely breath at home. In the meantime, I just continued staying at home helping my mother. I am telling you, being a housewife is very exhausting. I woke up at 6AM and suddenly it is 7PM. I don’t even realise the time passed just like that. 

Sometimes in the fourth week, we received the news that my grandfather's brother lived in Kajang passed away. On the next day, another news that my paternal grandfather also passed away. We did not go for their funeral but I am grateful that we got the chance to visit them while they were alive. At the end of the fourth week, I was asked to travel back to Qatar immediately either the next day or the day after tomorrow. My presence was needed on urgent basis. I was like ok………. Regardless I travelled two days after. 

Then in Doha. I was grateful as Qatar listed Malaysia as low-risk country so I can do home quarantine, only 6 days. However, as per SLB rule and requirement before going offshore, I will need to complete 14 days. Anyway, I was fine with it since I am doing quarantine at my apartment. I can do whatever I want.

Well, not really. One my housemate at the apartment, so I need to take care the social distancing. She spent most of her time in her room and I like staying in the living room at dining table. 

I stayed low profile after 2 days of my arrival, on the third day I just sent email and suddenly the managers woke up and realised I am back in Doha. So a lot of things need to be done. I did two virtual classes and some presentations etc. The presentation was part of the project for my promotion. It was interesting project, at the start I had urge to complete it then now my motivation flatten.. Especially when I am at the rig now. 

In effort to spend money wisely, I found that the small tomato is cheaper than actual fruits. I bought it after I finished my home quarantine. Also, it is tasty. 

I did not know this plant is called as Money Plant. I bought it to have something fresh to look at in my apartment. 

That’s the current update about myself. 

Thank you for those who are reading my blog. Using blogspot, it is very old right. I am not used to write on Facebook, and for Instagram I will update it from time to time. 

I will update you all again. Take care and stay safe all. Salam w.b.t.

P/S - Hi all, if you want, you can connect with me on LinkedIn. I spent at least 70% of scrolling time on the LinkedIn.