It is all temporary

Salam w.b.t and hi dear readers,

Thank you for keeping up with me so far. I am grateful for that.

 

You know, as for now I have been sticking around with this Blogger though not many readers or attention received. I could have tried using other platform and make money out of it through writing (I wish).

 

A while ago, I studied the Wordpress and the possibility to switch/transfer all Blogger content to Wordpress. It requires a little bit of payment though. Honestly, payment for that platform is not the main issue. The issue is I don’t feel what I share from being me and all the contents I wrote so far can be commercialised. In conclusion, I haven't found my niche yet thus it will be difficult to be consistent.

 

Therefore, I decided let's keep going on with the Blogger to pour my heart out.

 

What's going on with me? I get off the rig last Monday after 4 days of rigging down all the surface equipment. The client is no longer wants SLB onboard, and bring in the competitor to the rig. So, me and another engineer, Kiran did the rig down. I am grateful I spent my entire hitch with best crew - Kiran, Gagandeep, and Adnene. I would say, from management perspective we are just underdog. Underdog here means we are not that fix crew stick together all the time and work for the highest paid client. However, that does not matter as nearly 39 days it has been the best hitch in the year. None acts like a jerk unlike my previous hitch at the "expensive client". Everybody cooperate well with each other, helping each other out and not acting like a passenger. I am really grateful with that as 39 days hitch did not go in misery direction. I rigged down with Kiran, he is super senior engineer. It is been a while I have a senior with me. I have enough sleep throughout the time, none woke me up, and I don’t disturb him. We took care of our shift accordingly.

 

We also had meaningful conversation from time to time about life, personal development, work, family, future, and hope. I appreciated it as it has been a while I have meaningful dialogue. 

 

Overall, it was great time.

 

I want to tell something a bit embarrassing and personal here. Hahaha….

 

I had a crush to one of the personnel at the rigsite. I don’t say anything, not a single word, not try to have a conversation, hardly pass across each other. But, I had a crush.

 

Normally, this crush feeling is just a false alarm and not last long. Well, I don’t remember when was the last time I had crush actually. However, I know myself very well. It is just random crush. So, I did not make any effort to talk to the person. I just looked and it will go away after some time :)

 

You know, how come I can have a crush?

 

It is easy. I am compelled to a quiet person. Not that quiet, quiet type when the people is shy and hiding in their shell. No, not that type. It is like a mystery type, where I really want to ask a lot of questions to uncover the mystery and for some reason, I believe it is interesting to know about that mystery person. Off course, I don’t ask.

 

It is difficult but over time as I am getting older, I am able to manage myself and consciously recognised what and how I feel.

 

It is normal but in Islam, "haya" which means humility, decency, shame is the one character can control ourselves. If human does not have humility in their self, that can lead them to do unethical things.

 

It will be over soon anyway.

 

That’s  all I want to update this time. I will be going home on Monday early hours, all set. Please pray for me that all will be well.

 

As usual, take care people and see you in the next entry. Salam w.b.t.

 

P/S - Finished watching Umbrella Academy Season 2 last night. If I can have a superpower, I will choose to be Number Five.