Jangan putus-asa

Lelah terasa diri ini sejak dua menjak ni.


Penat berusaha mencapai ekspektasi.


Mengah memaksa diri untuk mendaki tangga kejayaan.


Sering-kali terjatuh, tersungkur, bergolek-golek.


Bukan tak biasa tersungkur.


Bukan tak pernah rasa kecewa.


Bukan tak pernah menangis kerana gagal.


Tapi entahlah.


Setiap peristiwa itu unik.


Bukan boleh kata, "Oh, aku pernah kecewa bulan lepas. Sama ja. Tak payahlah nangis".


Tak sama.


Setiap kali, tak sama.


Penat, memang diakui sejujurnya.


Penat, lelah, mengah memaksa diri mengorak langkah.


Menaiki anak-anak tangga ke puncak.


Tetapi memikirkan, "Ah, tak lama lagi ni sampailah kita ke puncak".


"Sabar lah diri. Jangan putus asa. Tak mengapa kalau tersungkur buat kesekian kali. Tak mengapa menangis kecewa, menangislah. Tiada siapa larang".


"Selepas hilang kesedihan itu, kukuhkan tapak kaki. Kuatkan hati dan doa. Jangan putus harap, usaha".


"Pasti kejayaan menanti bagi mereka yang tidak berputus-asa".




The Pier, St. Andrews, Fife

Another Year, Another Number

Salam w.b.t and hi all.

Reaching 24 years old on the last three days, I get to know myself better.

Trust

I trust people easily, new friends and even a stranger. Yes, I am an idiot for trusting people easily. Every time I meet a new friend, I would love to think they are like a baby. You know, they are ‘white’, pure, nice and no bad side. Yeah, too ambitious right? Anyhow, that is how I want people to think of me, positive. Treat others like how we want to be treated, shall we?

Unfortunately, too much trust I give to people has taken its toll on me. Many events, but it is better to keep it to myself. My mother always advised me to be careful, different people have different heart. However, with the increase of my age, I am learning about people and from my experience. Hopefully, I will be wiser each day.

Style, Fashion, and Me.

Goodbye fashion and style. I am a cave girl. Jajajaja…

When I am angry,

When I am angry, I will be quiet. It is not I don’t have anything to say, it is I am trying extremely hard to stop bad words which are racing hard to get out from my mouth. Otherwise, I will kill others with my words, which I don’t fancy to.

When I am envy,

When I am envy to a specific person, I would not talk to that person for a certain amount of time. I would say I am taking some time to persuade or "pujuk" my heart. Weird, right? That’s how woman deals with her broken heart, I guess.

When I am waiting,

I cannot deal with a lateness or waiting for someone/something that is late. My blood will be pumped very, very, very fast when this happen. Impatient, yes I am. But, when you said meeting at 3 pm, 3 pm it is. It is not that at 3 pm you just started moving your ass from your chair. Understand?

I am stubborn.

This is a fact. I can tolerate on certain things, and also got certain things which I could not tolerate. For example, when you force me to do something I don't want. Let me give you an example, a colleague asked me to go somewhere to monitor the project progress. This fella kept forcing me, I don’t want. When I said I don’t want, means I don’t want. Period.

Anyway, I don’t blame this fella, it is in my DNA to against when people pushing me. But, it takes some arts if you want me to do something which against my willingness. People who understands me know the arts I mentioned.

I am not good in terms of social life

I am not good at maintaining relationship with others. I don’t know why, but when I befriended with a similar person for a long time, I will get boring. Let say, I meet that person every single day for six months straight, I will be boring. Seriously dull. I need to meet people, meet new people. I still got friends, but not many. Anyway, based on an online personality test, I am an introvert kind of person.

I think that online test was a fake. So, dear my future husband if you are reading this, believe me, the test was not genuine.

Routine

Falling into same routine every single day will kill me slowly. Nevertheless, at the moment I am trying my best to make myself calm and composed. I would love to see and experience something extraordinary every single day. So that I can reflect what I have gone through before I go to sleep and think what can be done better next time.

I think that’s all I want to share about myself. Some may take this entry as a way to understand me better, like understanding the reasons why Atiqah is so annoying. Some others may take this as disadvantage to manipulate me. Yeah, whatever.

Either way, I hope you have fun reading this. Hehehe…

Salam w.b.t and chow!

P/S – Who got extra money and don’t know how to spend it? Please, bank it to my account. I need money. PM me for details J

Terbang Tunduk

Salam w.b.t dan Hai, folks.

Kabare waras? Hehehe...Alhamdulillah, kita sihat, macam biasa. Hahaha….Kita takda benda yang unik berlaku kebelakangan ini. Ada jugalah yang berlaku sebenarnya, tetapi tidaklah seunik mana. Takpe, itu kita cerita di entry lain kali.

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Lagu ini bagi kita, banyak pengertiannya. Walau bagaimanapun, pengajaran yang paling melekat sekali di hati kita adalah, jangan mudah lupa dan tidak sombong bila dah berjaya. Pengajaran yang kedua adalah, pasti akan ada kesenangan yang menanti selepas susah payah. Bak kata pepatah, "bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian".

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Terbang Tunduk - Fynn Jamal

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